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Swimming down the river, gazing up at some tall gum trees I realised that trees (like the Tree of Life) have crowns, those wavey leaves right up the top. So I was imagining myself up there, in Kether, waving around in the breeze and beathing for the rest of the Tree…

The next day there were white cockatoos screeching around the house and they settled in the crown of a tree nearby… They are one of my absolutely favourite birds and I’ve always identified with them and felt they sent me messages. A few of them swooped onto the top verandah railing and started screeching there… when my partner went up they flew off but left me a white feather. They returned to the tree where there was some kind of berry they were eating and fluttered around, their yellow crown/crests blazing (the colour for Kether is white but I can easily imagine it with a golden crown!)

Today I heard one screeching outside the back of the house - when I went and stood on the paving I couldn’t see anything - there was another screech above me (as if it were saying ‘look up!’ and when I looked up, a white fluffy feather was fluttering down towards me. I put out my hand and it fell into my palm. I am definitely in Kether, and I think the white cockatoos are there with me.

Last night in my Kabbalah Tree I moved from Malkuth, right down the bottom, all the way up the Tree to Kether. From the Kingdom to the Crown, or the Bride to the Bridegroom.

As I was actually doing the transit I felt as if I was on one of those really fast trains - you can see that you’re passing through stations, but their names are just a blur as you pass by. I could see all the Sephiroth I was moving through - their colours and shapes, I knew the track I was following, of the lightning strike - but actually there was nothing in my head about the meaning of each of those places, whereas I had thought I would be fully conscious of each Sephiroth I touched on. I rested at Binah - so I registered that, and Malkuth, where I had started.

Once I was in Kether, when I turned around it was a 180 degree shift, as well as bottom-to-top and South-to-North. I felt magnetically sealed to Malkuth - as if there was no distance at all between us, yet everything was contained there (all the other Sephiroth) as well. I felt alive and as if every breath I exhaled went all through the whole Tree… and maybe I was drawing them in from the Ain Soph. I didn’t really expect to like it much in Kether (too removed, I thought) but I feel really alive and connected!

Talking about the ‘central colomn’ as being an energetic colomn of light/energy/divine force that runs through the body, beside, beneath or within the spinal colomn, I met with my Middle Pillar compatriots (Kether, Tifferet and Yesod) last night for an informal consultation on what we are learning about this Pillar.

There seems to be a simplicity - a clarity - purity/essence associated with these positions, as compared with those on the other pillars. The Left and Right Pillars seem to contain more human characteristics and concerns - possibly with Yesod as a discrepancy, though the three of us who’ve held that position so far have widely differing experiences of it. I experienced it as a kind of maelstrom, perhaps that chaos just doesn’t suit me, whereas others have found it either dynamic and active, or dreamy and filled with potential.

The Middle Pillar also contains Da’ath, which we have acknowledged without really working with it (yet). But it’s interesting that it comes between Kether and Tifferet, which otherwise could have a straight-forward link between spirit and the heart; thus suggesting that link is not straight-forward at all.

I am finding Malkuth muddy. On the earth and of the earth, but a little bogged down and requiring a lot of slogging through, not necessarily with brilliant directions. I can see progress being made, in all of my various projects, but it is not brilliant, startling or very decisive. Oh well. I’m trying to finish off a few things because - from reports - Kether is far beyond such mundane concerns…